The whole truth

I got the neurologist's office to fax me my reports so that I could read for myself what it said, since he had been kinda vague. It is a two inch medlastinal mass that is up against my spinal column from the level of T1 through T4 extending to the right and left of midline. It is behind my windpipe. According to the report it is "markedly" deviating my esophagus to the right. It may be a matted lymphnode mass, (ie hodgkins lymphoma) but other masses cannot be excluded. I will have a CT scan on Friday and meet with my oncologist on Tuesday. Ewww, MY ONCOLOGIST. That sucks to say alot.