How Jenni Got Her Groove Back....

I don't even know if anyone is reading anymore but I have gotten over the last hump I think. I have accepted that I will be going back to work on a normal 5 day a week schedule. I am concentrating on the positives. Colin will get some structure and play time with other kids, I will get a weekday off every week where I can get things DONE ALONE, I will have every other weekend off, a happier husband and family life (I hope). The negatives are that I will be paying alot for daycare, I will have to make myself go to the gym after work ( which is sooooo hard), I will have to drive my SUV the 25 minutes to work and pay for all that damn gas, I will have to clean house, do laundry etc, in the limited time I have every evening, (but I did it before so I can do it again). So basically we will have a tough time with the finances but we might be a happier family. (I hope) I love being home with the kids, but it is getting hard to find things to do to keep them and me from getting bored. We play outside, we go to the gym and the park, with gas prices so high I don't take them to the playland at the mall anymore. I myself am getting bored and unmotivated, everyday is the same and I never have a day off from the kids. Every situation had pluses and minuses, and happiness comes before finances. We will make it work. Weekend only schedules are good for short term but very stressful in the long term. Especially with Chris travelling so much this summer, we only see each other during the week so when he travels we go 12 days without seeing each other (friday night, to the 2nd following monday morning) since I am not home on the weekends.

I have lost most of the weight that I regained and am on a regular schedule back at the gym. I am not interested in making too much comment on this subject right now. I am just trying to do better.