IT IS NOT CANCER

The end.

I will still get my endoscopy tomorrow and then a referral to a thoracic surgeon to see if he thinks it should be biopsied. It may not even need a biopsy!!! It is up to the surgeon, but the oncologist encourages the biopsy.

It is very hard to shift gears from very anxious to very relieved. I got really bad last night with my fear. I won't even get into it but I really just wanted to get in the car and drive far away. I was sooooooo afraid of getting bad news.

Chris and I decided that since the apoointment was early and the kids were taken care of that we would go to the gym and burn off some steam. Hey! I can still jog. Then we went to lunch at Subway. We just spent the rest of the day trying to relax and regroup.

I think that having the scan of my whole body show nothing wrong with me, I decided that I need to refocus on getting healthy. I will get back into excersizing slowly and work on getting back into health. Hey , I have a perfect body on the inside (except for the two inch mass in my neck hehehe...) and now I need a perfect body on the outside to match.