Emotional breakdown

I have had a few small breakdowns over the last few days but none quite as severe as today. I took Brandon and dropped him off with his Grandma and when I came home with Colin I got the mail. I got an EOB from the insurance company stating that the claim for my MRI of my foot from last month will be unpaid as the MRI people are not providers in my network. Well I immediately became distraught over the thought that $1,500 would be my responsibility and then overwhelmed at the thought that I had just had well over $10,000 in MRI's done this week. Well I just lost it. Cried so hard I thought I would puke. I was a wreck. Well, it took some time but I came to the conclusion that since they told me they were participating in my plan and their web page says they participate that I am going to ignore the EOB and let them figure out how to get paid because I am not giving them a dime over my deductible/co-pay. They will have to figure out why they are taking patients and providing thousands of dollars of services to people who's insurance they don't take. I decided that this is not my problem. I have enough of my own problems. If they send me a bill I will let them have a piece of my mind but I will still not pay them. UGH!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!! I just want to scream........