I am sad today

My Dad called Tuesday to say that his sister Nina was not doing well and that they had moved up their visit to see her in Arizona and were leaving that day. The doctors knew that her family was coming for a visit in a few weeks and told them not to wait. Dad called to say that she is terminal, she is in alot of pain from her cancer spreading all over her body (lungs, liver, colon) and that her intestines had many blockages. She can no longer take anything by mouth and is on IV nutrition, she also being heavily medicated for pain. She can't take care of herself and as soon as the doctors can switch her to a non-IV and non- by mouth form medication (patch or under the tongue or injection) they will mover her to a hospice facility. If she happens to get strong enough to take care of herself she can go home, but when she decides that the pain and illness are to much she will have the IV nutrition stopped and be allowed a peaceful death through the help of hospice.

My Dad says that this is his last visit with her and that there will be no formal funeral to attend. For some reason this makes me the saddest of all. Knowing that you will never again see your sister alive makes me sad in the pit of my soul. How do you act during your visit, what do you say?

All of this reenforces that I want to be as healthy as possible, we can prevent dying, but I would like to know that in the end I lived a healthy life and have no regrets like dying at 230lbs.