I don't want to be the 98% that fail....

Here is a quote off another site and I wanted to post it here for my motivation.....I take no credit for this it comes from Modern Paleo Warfare....

"Don’t tell me the gym was closed. Shut up. Don’t give me that shit. More importantly, don’t give yourself that shit. Find that untouchable piece of honestly within you and let it give you some damn perspective.
Have you written down your goals? Have you made yourself accountable to others? Have you done a proper shop? Have you taken your ‘before’ photo? Have you sweated? Have you burnt your bridges? Because it’s gut check time. It’s balls to the walls time. It’s drastic, life or death, ‘you’re the hero’ time. It’s God-damn hard work and never, NEVER, giving up. It’s deciding if you want to stay in the grave you’ve dug for yourself or emotionally and mentally scarring yourself enough to make that change. Yes it’s that dramatic. And yes, it’s that important.

If you’re the kind of person that wants to grow, to prosper, if you want to make a permanent improvement in your life, if you can find the testicular fortitude to be honest with yourself then get naked and get happy, 2012 really is going to be your years ."

Ready to get started. I am pumped and ready to go. It's the new year and I am motivated. Tomorrow I will get on the treadmill, and eat on point. I have my lunch all set and I will try having a protien shake in the morning. The house is clean and the laundry is done. No excuses!! Its going to be a great year!!~!!

Today I was so busy at work and before I realized it, it was already noon. I just had a can of pineapple and two brownies while at my desk. All crap but I really didn't want to leave work to get food. Starting next week I really need to focus on better lunches, but I am having a really hard time with paleo ideas. I may hvae to batch cook chicken breasts on Sunday like I do with the quiches. I think I will also allow grains at breakfast, well see. I could make a double batch of crustless quiche too. They are quick to reheat and would only take a few minutes to eat. I did really good with keeping the house up this week, kept up with the laundry and even put it away. I even worked out twice in a row. No hard, beacause I need to ease into it. Next week I really need to get up earlier so I can get off work earlier and get in my workouts without feeling stressed about time. I have really tried to focus this week on getting things done without letting it make me feel stressed.

Starting Over

I am going to journal my trials and tribulations while I lose 100 pounds this year. There is no longer a choice. I have to do this.....I will be eating a mostly low carb plan. No counting, I can't do it, I hate counting anything, carbs, calories, points. I won't do it. So I am gonna try a paleo diet. Just eat mostly meats and veggies, little fruit or dairy and almost no grains. No counting. I am beautiful and have a beautiful life that I want to enjoy. I will keep the actual weight number to myself for now, but I am having my weights and measurements done at Curves. I will be doing curves and the treadmill, then in the spring I would like to start jogging.

Now or never

So I decided that if I am ever gonna change it has to be now or never. Well not really never, but that this is the best it is ever goona get. I am working monday through friday, my schedule is about as uncomplicated as it could ever be and it may not be this way forever. I have no excuses. I get up and have cereal, I have lunch at my desk, I go work out, I come home and have dinner. It's that easy. This is normal. Be normal. Make good choices and it should all fall into place. I can make it this time.

Fitness

One of the things I am going to do for exercise is a ladies self defense class. It's a class based off of Commando Krav Maga. It got me sweaty without feeling too much like a loser. A good fun way to burn calories.

Here we go again...

So many changes..... I am now working monday through friday. I have every weekend off. I am up to 273. yup that much. It was a terrible year. I had the thoracic surgery, then I started to get better from that and even joined karate with the family. Then I blew out my ACL which kept me form excercising for 6 months. So here I am ready to start again. I have so far to go....it makes me sad, but I am trying to regain some control of my weight. My mom even expressed to me how concerned she was. I don't balme her, I am gald she said something. My first mini goal is to be 270 by the end of the week. I am going to go to curves 4 days this week. I am also planning on joining a self defense class on mondays and maybe even yoga on tuesdays, then I can go to curves wednesday through saturday. Chris has recently upped how much he is woeking out so I really want to do this for us. I need this.

Why?

Why do I say one thing then do another?

Lets try this.......This week I will eat like crap, not go to Curves, and I will gain ten pounds. There, that should work, now maybe I will lose a few pounds this week before we go to PA!!! I am so excited to go!!

Wednesday

Nekkid weight 234

So that is 6.5 lbs so far. Wow this is slow. Even with the meds I just can't give up eating. I am really trying to drink less soda and eat more fruits and small portions of the bad stuff. Notice that I am not even pretending to say that I can go without the good stuff. I know myself too well. So I am still keeping this at about two pounds a week. I think this Friday is three weeks since I started the med. My first mini goal is under 230 by July July 3rd when we go to Nana's house. I should be able to do four more pounds by then.

Tuesday

I am getting sick of making up titles

no nekkid weight

My wieght at this exact moment with my pants off and top and bra on is 235, so I am hoping tomorrow morning may show a little loss. That would be nice. I got in a very nice little work out today while waiting for my car to be worked on at the shop. The kids and I walked around and went to Mcdonals where I had two packs of apples, a parfait and a cookie. Then we walked to walmart then back to the shop. It was a lot of walking in the heat.

lost track

I lost track of the days.....

Nekkid weight 235


I thought it might be worse than that. No gain, no loss, expecting that time of the month any day now.

day 12

no nekkid weight

too scared to get on the scale, too much ice cream cake still left......

day 11

nekkid weight 235.5

just like I thought, I went back up two pounds. I figures the three pound loss wasn't "real" weight. Now I am heading to that time of the month. I fell off the wagon today. Will start again tomorrow. No soda, lots of water and eating better.

day 10

nekkid weight 233.5

whoop!! whoop!! I still don't understand my body. I didn't eat all day until the party, and I didn't eat as much as I might have before but still, to drop three pounds in a day??? I am sure it will be up two pounds tomorrow. I can see the 220's coming!!!

day 9

nekkid weight 236.5

How does that happen?

Oh well I am glad it's not up, just suprised. Long day of partying today......can't wait to see tomorrows weight! NOT!!!